Been a long hard year on us as a family, and I guess it ended with my wife passing away January 11th, 2016.
I think I called Em from the hospital. I know I've talked to her several times lately.
In the end, it was a heart attack, and life was over too quick. We had been in the hospital for a while. Spent Christmas there with her. Barb was in the hospital, ICU, almost a month the last time. She had been in for two weeks just before that.
Going on a month now, and I'm as lost now as I was that night.
For anyone that knew me, or read some of my posts, I made a lot of
jokes about my wife. Not just here online, but in real life. I made those jokes. We've loved and laughed since being kids together. A thousand memories. A lifetime.
She was special to me, the center of my world. And she knew that...I always treated her that way. I remember the day I met her...first day of school in the tenth grade. I sat behind her in English class. Never looked at another girl after that. Wasn't no use. She was that light in my life, that spark that made it all worthwhile.
I would ride my bike to her house after school. Her dad would load me up in his old pickup and drive me home after dark.She lived in town, I lived on a farm out in the county. I would ride my bike there, we would walk downtown to the movies, maybe share an ice cream on the way home.
I got a kick out of that right up till the end...we always sat in the same corner booth when we could. Old habits and all, we still went to the same old place, still sat beside each other and shared our banana splits. Just something we always did.
Lost without her doesn't even begin to describe where I'm at. Sleeping a few hours a night if I sleep at all. Most of that's on the couch. That bedroom is awful lonely these days. I can't stand rolling over at night and her not being there. Home isn't home without her.
I didn't see this coming. She was supposed to get well. We we going to grow old together. She was only 58, and it was over too soon.
And to those of you who still have that wife, or husband, or children, whoever it is you love, treasure every day. Never miss that chance to tell them you love them or make that day special.
I stand before you, and tell you, it's over in a blink. One heartbeat, one breath.
Make the days count.
Edited by Spookwriter - 2/8/16 at 8:27pm