I was up all night last night crying and very seick at my stomach. I know that I should just be calm and deal with this one step at a time but I somehow never saw myself faced with something of this magnitude.
I am not certain but I have a very real fear that I could have cancer. I'm not a hypocondriac and rarely even bat an eye at injury or illness but this time is very different.
I will spare you all the details. I can not be sure until I have some tests of course but I must admit that I am very scared. I never thought I would get this out of whack about something.
DH is just smothering me and does not want me out of his sight. I did not sleep much last night and neither did he. He wants to talk about it at length and I just want to be left alone to deal with it. I get so much more upset when he is hugging on me and trying to get me to talk. I don't know what to do. I can't breathe. I know he is hurting and afraid also and I know it is because he loves me so much but I can't handle this being smothered. I love him and don't want to hurt his feelings.
Please pray for me to have strength and resolve to handle this and for my husband to have some peace in his heart and see that I need some space and time. I need God to hold me up because I am just not strong enough to do it myself any more.
Edited by Pumpkinpup - 9/2/09 at 6:39am