Prayers needed in the worst sort of way. Another Update....09/02

You will be put on a prayer list today.

Good thoughts and well wishes

Guys are "fixers."  He's trying to make things better but at the same time, he's probably feeling helpless and scared because he loves you and he knows he really can't fix anything in this situation.

My sincerest thoughts for you and your husband and family that all will be well.

Prayer for you!

Prayers sent-hang in there. 

Just wandering what would make you think this? PM me if you feel up to it or share with all if you can. Prayers for you

Relax, and wait to find out for sure.  I thought the same thing, truly, had every symptom that would have indicated it.  Went to the doctor, went thru a battery of tests, and it wasnt.  So 30 years later, I can still tell the story.

Don't jump to conclusions.  And if it is the worst, treatment is so different now that it was even 10 years ago.  It can be cured.  So wait and see a doctor, don't assume.

Oh, Pumpkinpup...   (We need a bigger hug smilie...)

For those of us of a certain age Cancer is this huge thing.  Back in the day it wasn't treatable and was horrible.  When my dad was diagnosed back in February I fell completely apart.  A total come apart, if you will.  It is such a big scary word and concept.  Even now just thinking about it tears me up. 

What I have learned with all of this going on with Dad is that medicine has come such a long way in the last little bit.  Dad has been doing chemo since March.  He just got a final CAT scan and looks great.  They're going to do another couple of rounds just to catch any "hiders", but other than that he is fine.  Truthfully, Dad's in better shape now than he has been in a long time.  While the chemo makes him tired, his work with PT has really toned him up.  He lost a lot of weight initially and he hasn't put all of it back on (we are all large people- big boned if you will ).  He's trimmer and more athletic than I ever remember him being, oddly enough.  He's out walking every morning and lifting weights (well, a giant can of stewed tomatoes, but...).  He looks great.
The chemo is time consuming and exhausting.  But they are smart enough now to just target certain things.  Dad hasn't been nauseous through any of it.  He's been aggravated that he was under house arrest while his counts were down, but he has been up and going strong.  Truthfully, I think he's been driving Mom a little nuts.  He gets that dose of prednisone in him and he's a whirling dervish of housecleaning fury.     

All of this to say that I dearly pray that you don't have cancer, but if that should be the case, there is Hope with a capital H.  It might just be a bump in the road. 
Maybe if DH has something to do it will calm him down.  Can you put him in charge of research and development?  That was Mom's job.  She got online and read everything she could get her hands on.  She's a nurse, so that's right up her alley anyway.  Maybe have DH start a folder of information for you.  Start a notebook and put him in charge of writing down what the doctors say.  If you are like me you will be focused on other things at those appointments.  DH can be your personal secretary.  At very least he will be piled up in front of the computer and you can take some time in another room to process what's in your head.

Again, hugs and more hugs your way.  I will be praying for you and he both.

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