Thank you so much everyone, I've felt so much better since I posted up and told someone (other then my mom, who's all like "oh my gosh, its just the end of the world". Cause, well, she's my mom and that's what moms do)
I'm still waiting to hear from my doctor, I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing yet.
Chilling in muscadine: good luck to you as you battle your cancer! Though my DH doesn't want to talk about me possibly being sick, we did talk about why he doesn't want to talk about it. He said between his own surgery (we were in a car accident in Aug of last year and he had to have surgery on his neck as a result) and now this going on with me has got him thinking about things he didn't want to think about (like drawing up a will, and what would happen to our children if we weren't able to be here for them, ect). I can relate to that, so Im figuring he'll want to talk about it when he's ready. Since I do have children (my hubby and mines daughter and I also have a step-son from DH previous relationship), its not that I wont be able to have children that's freaking me out. I'm actually pretty dead set on not having anymore. This is probably going to sound OCD, but I really think I'm mostly worried about the inconvenience of the whole thing. I'm a creature of habit, and having to be in the hospital to have surgery and then having to deal with recovery time is seriously going to cramp my style. Not to mention, I've spent a total of 2 days in the hospital (when I had my daughter), and that was enough for me to realize that I didn't want to spend any more time there then I absolutely have to
I don't feel sick, and I don't look sick- so at this point I'm just trying not too think about it and cause myself anymore stress.
You all are simply amazing, by the way. Its nice to know I can turn to my chicken friends for some kind words and some wisdom. Blessings to all of you fighting or who have loved ones fighting cancer. I hope you all kick serious butt!!!!