I lost my whole world on 4-17-12 - Page 8

We have been in a custody battle/child support battle for almost 4 yrs now. We had custody of his son for almost 2 yrs.When he came to live with us he had missed so much school he needed remedial classes to catch up, he missed 37 days of school and had 21 tardies in one year!. In 2 yrs he went from behind to a GPA of 3.7. He is back with his mom now and I am so angry. She will not let me talk to him or see him. I am going to fight for custody or at least visitation. That ugly woman's dreams came true when my love died. She got her son back, she now has a source of income for at least 8 yrs and there is no one to monitor his school attendance. She can also do all the drugs she wants as his father is not here to monitor the situation. I am so worried about this child. The only reason we didn't get married was because of her. She tried to go after 20% of my income so she could get more money every month, even though me and The Big Guy weren't married. She is such a sick, sick, vindictive individual. It stuns me that there are people like that in the world. She kept him away from us from seeing him for almost 1 1/2 yrs. We couldn't keep track of her because she moved so much and changed her phone number every couple of weeks. . She told this little boy that his dad didn't love or want him and that his dad was rich, but because he didn't love him he wouldn't help them out with money and food. She also told him that when he was a really little kid that his dad beat her and him and that he should be afraid of his dad because his dad would hurt him. When this little boy came to live with us he was so scared he asked us permission to get a drink of water, use the restroom or sit on a piece of furniture. Sheis also living with a Registered Sex Offender and there are court order specifically denying any contact with this child, yet this child is now living in the house with him. Please do not pray for me, pray for this little boy. I feel so guilty, I messed up. I did not know that when The Big Guy died, legally I became the Parent de Facto and I just let her take him.