SCG, I know you don't believe this, but having a baby would be the best thing that ever happened to you.
ETA - I'm not trying to talk you into it, really, I guess with the realization that my first "baby" is about grown (that hit me hard yesterday) I am being nostalgic. I was never one to get all sappy over kids. I thought they were fine, kinda fun to mess with, easily tricked, etc. I played with them like I played with cats or horses.... I told my mom for years that I didn't want kids, I would rather have puppies. You got to play with them until they were too much trouble, then you sold them! Everyone, including me, thought that was just the way it was going to be with me.
I didn't even think about getting married or having kids until I was over 30. One day, I thought, " I probably should have a couple of kids." So I set about looking for a husband (things are done in a particular order in my family) and was pregnant within three months of getting married.
I clearly remember sitting in my hospital bed, looking at my newborn son, feeling his fingers and toes and knowing, beyond any doubt, without any thought or hesitation, that I would die for him, or I would kill for him, whichever was necessary.
I picked up the phone and called my mom. I said, "Mom? You know all these years when you said 'I love you, baby? Well, now, I know what you meant."
My life changed completely, the world was different, and I had no idea it would be that way. I always smile when I tell women that are pregnant, "Your life will never be the same."
Edited by Wisher1000 - 2/28/16 at 6:13am