This summer has been a time of reflection. I have listened to my third “oops” rooster Ted Baxter, crow and thought a lot about what I want to do. I have been feeling stuck.
We did make an offer on the foreclosure next door, but the bank rejected it because they got a sucker to offer full price! At first I was devastated because I’m afraid. Afraid, that we would get another horror show of a neighbor on the other side. In my heart I knew I had to find a way to let it go. So every day when I walk my dogs in the woods I do just that. My woods- this calm, peace and beauty- it’s all right here. There is no loud music beyond the symphony that is the snorting of the bucks, the gobbling of the turkeys and calls of the pileated woodpeckers. I listen to the joyful music of my youngest dog’s bell on her collar. It’s the twinkling that warns the deer to hide and reassures me that she is still close when I can’t see her. I hear the crunch of the leaves in the fall and the squishing noise that the mud makes beneath my boots in the spring. The quite stillness of winter where any noise travels fast through the open woods amplified for all to hear. These woods really belong to all, but I feel they are here just for me. So no matter what happens, I have this place of quietness and beauty for always. I am doing my best to focus on that.
I don’t want to be sad all the time anymore. I also don’t want to just sit in my house and worry about my world. Yes, the music goes on from Crazy Lady’s yard next door. Maybe it’s the 3rd rooster that ticked her off this time. But rather than sitting her obsessing about it, I brought my youngest dog Mimi to a couple of dog shows. What fun- a whole day where I thought of nothing but dogs! I forgot about Crazy Lady and the foreclosure on the other side. And Mimi got a Best of Breed ribbon at both shows! Granted, the competition was small. But I was told that I didn’t need to talk about that. My new dog friends told me that the rest of my competition was home on their couch eating potato chips and watching TV. So be proud of what I did, because I’m the one that trained my dog to behave and showed up. I like this dog show thing!
So after I had these revelations and accepted that I would not be buying the house next door, yesterday the potential buyer had the septic inspected. Turns out the whole system is toast. For those of you who are not septic savvy- no septic equals no bathroom! There are no sewer lines out here in the country! I talked to the septic inspector who lucky for me was a chatter box. Because of our high water table and close to the surface bedrock, they would need an engineered septic system. The old septic was done without permits back in the 70’s. It does not conform to today’s regulations so it must be completely replaced. His estimate was between 20 and 25K. This may kill the current deal on the house! And what it means is that future flippers are going to be VERY leery of buying the house. So all hope is not lost! If the buyer can come up with the 25K then she still may buy the house. She would be a fool to buy it…but hopefully she’s not crazy! So now I wait again to find out what happens. But I’m not staying here. Today I’m taking all the dogs to the lake, to swim and be happy!!
Mimi in her woods...