I seem to have come to terms with my life and am content/happy for the most part.
There are a couple things that I would love to do BUT am accepting gradually that they will never happen, biggest is holding a child of my own in my arms. Not having my Sib's live closer BUT other then that I have done most of what I want. I have my health, a loving extended family, GREAT friends, my Dogs, yaks, chickens, a money pit of a hobby farm, the motel, and my faith.
LIFE IS GOOD everything else is just bumps and potholes on the road of life. Granted some of the potholes are FARKING HUGE and will swallow you up for a time but for me that just even more reason to enjoy the smooth part of the road on I crawl out
this makes me sad and it shouldnt. How many men throw their children away . The days not over yet Scott.