Took a long drive out into the forest today.. stopping to stand in the rain and look at hood canal and the fog linger from the top of a mountain. I think its needless to say that we are feeling a little empty inside. Spent most of the morning out of cell phone service and drove to find a million messages from my family. Joey has caused unnecessary drama and has brought my parents into this, nonissue.... Devin is over there now picking him up but never in a million years would I have thought one of my own would bring me such havoc.... I recieved a text message from his girlfriend today saying that her grandpa can take joey for a few days so that me and devin have time to think about stuff... I dont know where they think they are living but this is not a soap opera and I have no time for foolery especially since there are important things in life to worry about. I love my son, but I am having a very difficult time liking him right now.
And as far as Lisa goes.... I know how she is feeling cause I think many of us have been there before. I will do everything in my power to make her feel loved and to let her know that I am willing to fight for a friendship I held dearly.... I dont believe anyone intentionally hurt her.. but she is hurting.
So I guess I will get off my soap box... I might run to a bar tonight, just to get away for a bit.. undecided.. I love each each and everyone of you and I hope you all know that I say that truely.
Granny, chin up. Everyone else chin up as well and hatch some babies.