Hey guys, I just wanted y'all to know that I am truly sorry about the other day. I know that y'all said I could continue playing and all is ok now. But I felt like you may not have really meant it. Believe it or not it really did and still does bother me that I offended some of y'all. That was definitely not what I intended to do. I was just trying to be funny and now I know that I shouldn't have said that. I've always tried to cut up and just fit in. No one truly knows what someone is going through. I think that if you knew me that you'd think entirely different of me then you probably do now. I was always the one that was picked on because of my handicap. I'm not using this as an excuse for saying the things that I said but I've always tried to be funny just to campground normal people. I have very low self esteem. I always have. Recently I've just had too much on me for one person to handle . I'm not saying that the words I said was right because they're not. And please don't take this the wrong way but, draye, you may want to try to be a little nicer when telling someone that they need to clean things up. Like I said please don't take it the wrong way. It's just you don't know what a person is going through. They could be very unstable and do things to themself that you'd have to live with the rest of your life. I know that personally no matter how someone acted, I'd hate to know that someone ended their life because of something that I said to them. Like I said, the things I said were definitely uncalled for and wrong. But I can almost see how someone might do something stupid because of they words people say to them. Please don't be upset with me. I just thought that you may be wanted to know that. Y'all both seem to be wonderful people. If you'd rather me not continue with this story (the right way of course) then I'll understand. I hope that y'all truly forgive me and don't take what I've said the wrong way. Hope you all sleeps well.