Thank you all, and especially Phil. It's great to have some perspective from the other side of all this.
I've been thinking (not really, of course...) maybe I'll just quit going to the doctors! They just find more things wrong with me it seems.....and I hate sounding whiney and ungrateful. I'm leukemia free far as we know and that's amazing. Cause that probably would have killed me by now all on it's own. This breathing stuff isn't going to kill me (I don't think, anyway), it's just making my life different. Having a bad heart shouldn't kill me (I don't think!), but it will make my life different. Maybe this is when I need to get back into the Word and be looking for what God wants me to do, not what I want to do.
I went out and looked at that house yesterday. I'm much less enamored of it after seeing it in person. First, as I'm driving down this 1/2 mile two track driveway that's barely wide enough for my van, I notice the hill goes straight up the passenger side. that makes me wonder if there's cell service here, cause I know it's spotty in this area. Then, as I pull up to the house, I'm thinking "I didn't tell anyone I was coming out here"...haven't we all seen a movie where the dumb chick does something like that? So I pull up in front of the place and I'm thinking the pics were from the last time it was vacant, cause the front door is painted a different color now. Overall it just looks more run down than the pics. I go to the front door and there's a notice for the relators, etc that the house has been "winterized" and please do not turn on faucets, etc. I knock and no one answers, but I get that creepy feeling someone is there. Oookay.....now I'm kind of freaked. I just take a quick peek down into the pasture area and bail. I don't need to run into any squatters or whoever is living there. Sometimes I'm not that bright, have I mentioned that? Anyway, we need to concentrate on getting our finances in order before we buy. It could be a fun challenge, how fast can we save up ten grand for a down payment?