Hi...need to rant. (By the way, yes, ha, im a teenager with chickens) It just hit me out of the blue that I have no real friends and no social life...and it makes me really really sad. And I don't even have anybody I can tell about how sad I am about this because well...I have no friends. Well...I have people that call me their friend...but I could hardly call them my friend. You see...I'm a VERY nice person. I'm not afraid to admit that. Its easy to take advantage of me. And with these friends I feel like I give 90 percent and they give me 10 percent back. I need a good 50/50. Or at least 60/40! I need someone to care about what I say. I don't mind listening but I'd also like for someone else to listen to me for once. And they never invite me over to do stuff. So im stuck at home feeling pity for myself. Pathetic! its been summer for 2 weeks and I haven't done anything interesting...well just watching tv with somebody would be fine with me...just...yeah. And I'm going to be a sophomore next year! Im SCARED! I had no friends in almost of my classes and since I have a low self esteem it just makes everything worse....im worried it will happen all over again and I don't think im depressed but im on the fence and getting there! I petsat a dog a few days ago and it was so wonderful because that dog acted like it wanted me and that feels so good. I want a dog soooo bad but that's not happening...(im surprised my dad let me get chickens instead!) Gah. So I know most of you people are old(no offense! Jk!) and out of high school but when you were in high school did you feel this? Im such a whiny baby, I know...ha. Sorry for any grammar or spelling issues...im on my phone right now and I type fast.... Edited to remove personal information.