This might be a little long, I'm sorry. My trouble's all began with an undiagnosed blood disorder, anticardiolipin antibody sydrome (lupus). I had been to the doctor and had blood test just 10 days prior and the doctor called and said my bloodwork was bad and never followed through. I had heard that for years, so it didn't bother me. April 25, 2002 I had 2 blood clots pass through my heart, run down my left arm and 1 blew out the end of my index finger and the other my middle finger. The doctors worked on those fingers for months so I didn't lose them to amputation. I had been working on weed eating the hot wire fences all day. Luckily ( I dont remember this) I had the EMT's there when I had 2 massive heart attacks. My DH is a very stubborn man, and he would not let them quit working on me. They brought me back 26 times to our knowledge, I have burn marks on my chest from the paddles. I was gone for 20 minutes once. I went to the hospital of course and they put in 2 stents, I found out later they put 2 stents in dead tissue. I think they were trying to shut my DH up. I was in a coma for 10 days, if I woke up I would be a vegetable. DH did not care. So one day I woke up, without a clue, scared my poor nurse to death when she came in my room. No rehab, I was home in 2 days. In July 2002 I had my first defibrillator put in. And I just wandered around with the little animals so to speak. New cardiologist in 2004 (I love him) and he immediatley had the defib removed and I had a CRT-D implanted which is a pacemake and defibrillator. Now I felt great. I should mention here, only 1/3 of my heart is alive, I cannot have a bypass, there is nothing to bypass it to. So these implants have batteries and since mine paces constantly they dont last as long for me. So a I had a new CRT-D implanted 2/09, but there was a problem and they had to bring another surgeon in and I had to have another surgery 2 days later. And since then I have felt . In the last year my defibrillator started going off, the first time it happened I was sitting at the kitchen table and my face slammed into the table and knocked me out. And it kept going off, I was afraid to go outside, go to the store. I have fell out at Wal-Mart and Target I have been asleep. So last Sept. I went back into the hospital and was put on Beta Blockers, a little dangerous if you have an implant. Well that worked, I thought. I have a device by my bed, hooked to a phone line that goes straight to another Cardiologist that watches my implant. And they called me about 10 days ago and said you are still having episodes. It hasn't fired but you need to go see your Doc. So here we are now, I am going to be in the "Transition for Transplantation" it just rolls off your tongue doesn't it. I am getting a LVAD also called a Healthmate 2 implanted. Former VP Cheney has one. So I am having open heart surgery and they put this mechanical thing under my heart that will make my blood flow constantly, and a line will come outside my body and I will have to wear battery packs. I should be good for 10 years and then I worry about the heart transplant. OK all of this sounds awful I know, but I am tough and GOD always has a plan. So I am not afraid. But I am mad I can't take another bath. I love my baths, I love to read in the tub. It will be showers only because I cant take the batteries off. Now I know we have other heart patients at BYC, anybody ever heard of or have a LVAD? And do they like it?