My husband has stage 3 colon cancer. They got the cancer out and we are half way through chemo. It's all so scary, you hear so many horror stories and it seems nobody beats it. I try not to think that way and I never say anything negative out loud but the fear is always there. Right now our focus is all about getting through the chemo which is making him so sick. My hear goes out to him and it's frustrating seeing the man who has always been right at your side working along with you not be able to be the way he always has been. There's not much I can do to help him feel better physically but I do everything in my power to help him with the emotional part of it. He's half way through his treatments and we both keep our eyes on the end of July when this part will be over and he'll feel like himself again. I feel bad for even putting this in writing but I can't voice it out loud and I'm hoping typing it will help me deal better.First I want to say there is nothing I would not do for this man. We will be married 31 years on the 23rd of this month and he is my life. That being said.... I'm just so tired, neither of us seem to sleep well anymore. My day starts at 3am not because it has to but because there's just no sense laying in bed with your eyes wide open, so you might as well get up. I take care of our farm, garden, home. I took over running our painting business, which thankfully we have a great crew of workers and all I have to do is the business side of it. Spring is so busy with cleaning the homestead, gardening etc.Trying to balance everything and still have time with husband, kids and grand kids. We had also moved my bedridden Mom and my Step Father in with us over a year ago, but I just couldn't keep up with everything and they went to stay with my brother awhile ( at least until chemo is over and things settle down ) which makes me feel terrible. I know this sounds like I'm complaining but I'm not really. I love my life and my family. It's just sometimes you get so tired you don't know how your going to pull it all off. Guess I'm just reaching out to anyone else that might be going through this, sometimes you just feel so alone even though your surrounded by loved ones.