I swear I feel as if my life is on the rocks right now. Everything seems to be going terribly wrong just recently. I will have no choice but to put down two of my pets tomorrow. A few days ago my rat Cupcake developed an ear infection that destroyed her equilibrium and now she can barely move around. Last night as I was checking on my baby girl Cupcake I noticed that her sister Kitty had a huge tumor on her chest that wasn't there the day before. I have seen a vet and been informed that neither one will be able to live productive lives at this point. So they will be put down tomorrow.. This right after two of their brothers died just a week ago and a month ago. And that just after I got back from the hospital where the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me in the slightest bit yet still charged me a thousand dollars. Which of course I don't have. So now I have to borrow money from my parents that I'll likely never be able to pay off to take care of the bills and pay the vet. I've had common store bought rats since I was a kid and they never died like this. Now that I bought pedigree rats they are each getting cancer and dying. I'm fed up with all the pain and death that surrounds me of a sudden. Just plain fed up. Now I'm being as positive as I can about this but with all my home stresses and what's going on back at my folks place it's about enough to drive a man straight up the wall and into a loony bin. Sorry but I had to vent. It's all just too much at once. Well, guess now that I've let some steam off I'll go back to being as upbeat as I can be.. *sigh*
