Okay I am not sure exactly wher to go with all of this info....I love animals! I love meat! I have lived on a farm my whole life and have always eatin animals that were raised on those farms. My kids know where meat comes from as they should.... My delima begins... as I get older I am starting to mush, not just weight wise which is a big problem these last few years, but also I can't seem to hunt or butcher anymore. I can't do it.. Plus it is not just me the Mountainman too. It gets worse than that even my parents.... This past deer season I called my parents house on opening day to see if they had any luck since I could not find it in my heart to even go hunting anymore.. To my suprise my father said he didn't go cause he didn't want to kill the deer either. So now if I can't kill what I raise and don't want to buy factory farm meats what am I going to do. I don't want to go vegan but I am limited on options here. I think I would benifit health wise on not eating meat but I really enjoy it. I think it is reasonable to eat meat from animals that were treated humanely and givin a respectful death. My father told me a story about my Hard nosed sometimes mean German Grandpa that was really kinda sweet. He named all of his cows and talked to them daily. He would sell most of them and appoligize to them as he did. When one was butchered for the family he would put it in the freezer and not eat it if he could remember its name and after a year if it had not been eaten he would give it to a needy family. So I am genetically prone to not be able to kill my own. Ok I want to say this I don't eat beef not for any moral reason, just that I don't like the taste. I mostly eat chicken, fish and pork. I enjoy all other meat except beef. I don't live in an area where I have vegan options at all. So my question how do I eat healthier and not eat factory farmed meat and not kill my own?