I just got back from the doctor today. I was a walk in because I couldn't breathe. I have asthma and figured I was having an attack. Well, long story short, I have COPD. And I'm scared as hell, madder than that, and even more ashamed of myself. I've been a heavy smoker since I was 13. In Oct. I "quit". I've been taking wellbutrin and am down to 3-5 cigs a day but never totally stopped. After today I'm quit, completely. I knew something was wrong with me this weekend when I couldn't even go a few steps without panting. I've been crying and am terrified of what the future holds for me now with this COPD. I'm only 34 years old. I knew that smoking was dangerous and caused disease and cancers, but I never listened. Now as I sit here with a bag of inhalers, albuteral for a nebulizer, steriod pills, etc. I have to tell my husband and family and I don't really know what to say. I'm typing and I'm out of breath. I guess this is what suffocation feels like.......... Just needed to talk I guess. I'm terrified........ Thanks for listening.