Ok well I made a beautiful, huge dinner. The house was all nice a prettied up, even made use of the new sideboard. Candles burning, blah blah blah. The mood is set. My Brother in SIL arrive and that goes well. Her son and his newly pregnant wife arrive ( praying for a great niece) that goes well. Then comes the rest of the family who over all made the holiday into a living hell for everyone. My nephew and his wife are forever arguing. His wife also has issues with his mother. His mother ( my sister) is not a saint but she babysits, cleans their house, does laundry, and yardwork all for free for them pretty much every weekend and whenever she can during the week so why the hatred I don't know. But never the less they are all at it again. Apparently the nephew rather than deal with any of it went ahead and accepted another run ( truck driver) and is leaving out tonight so they are not with each other too much. It was horrible. So tense. I was sneaking shot glasses of my moms egg nog ( little egg lots of nog ) and even that did not help much. I still have my daughters first birthday and Christmas to get through. I never do family birthdays for my kids anymore because of family stress but I gave in this year because another SIL has complained that they really want to celebrate with us the kids birthdays. So I gave in. Now I am regretting it. The fighting is going to ruin it for me. Let me tell you rum and passion flower can only relax a person so much. I really wish for Christmas we could just cancel the whole yearly get together and just go away. Load my parents and the kids up and take of for the smokies, a cave, a bomb shelter....pretty much anywhere but here. I love Christmas. Its my favorite holiday but I am dreading it this year.