A few days ago, I processed a white broiler. It was not as easy as I thought.... I had heartache for hours afterwards and the images of the dying bird just lingering in my head for days. I love animals, but I am not a vegetarian yet though I eat very little meat, but I love fish and seafood. In our household, both of my husband and my son and our dog love meat. I started to grow my own vegetables since early this year and I also got some hens to lay eggs so we can live a more self-sufficient life style. About one and half months ago, I thought to myself, why not raise our own meat so we can be totally self-sufficient and have healthy and tasty meat as even the organic chicken we buy from store are tasteless nowadays. Under this motivation, I ordered some white broilers and only now I found out that killing them is such an impossible task! Both of my son and my husband don't want to slaughter the birds and they said they have no problem of eating meat from supermarket, but to my mind, what is the difference between that? Although you didn't kill the animals, someone had to kill them, so you can have the meat on your table. Or not eat meat at all, then there is no killing! My husband is looking for some local butcher store to do this for us and he doesn't want me to do it again as he is concerned about my heart (I have mild heart condition), but I really wish I could do it as I have always wanted to have a farm and raise animals someday.