So it has been roughly five months now since my Exwife wanted to separate and go off where ever. I have my good days but then again I have those days where I miss the life we were starting for ourselves. bit of a background. I ended up in the hospital for six months and wasnt sure if I would make it home again back in late 2013. during that time and when I got out she was cheating on me with another man. for months I was renovating a home for her father to move in to and caught her. I gave her the choice to work on the marrige or to leave and she wanted to try to better herself with me. So being the man I am I agreed and went with her for counseling for 18 months until the day we were supposed to go for a road trip she stated she wanted a separation as in her words "I dont think we will ever be able to communicate to each other". I packed my bags that night. It still kills me inside what she did, I wasnt alowed alot of my stuff nor my dog or any chickens (petty I knoiw but they meant alot to me). I found out three days after I left she had gone back to the man and was communicating with him instead of trying to communicate with me. She ended it with him a few weeks later and I could care less. I have been torn down to nothing. some days I look back and think of what could have been and what was. I blame my self for even though the reasons I was given to why it was my fault dont make sence. She was working at a excellent job so she wanted me to not do firewood but to gut the basement that had mould in it. then it turned to me not excavating around the house to seal it up. along the way she got fired and was angry that I hadnt done much firewood and should have known better. so I went out that day and cut down three cords of wood. that was june. well after weeks of trying to agrange a time that was condusive for her schedual (im working full time she is on welfare now) to sign the separation paper work, I stopped by and see all the wood still laying there ready to be spilt. I just shake my head thinking how was it that apparently everyone but me saw I wasnt doing enough???