Stupid, stupid, stupid me. I have a beautiful gamecock that I named Thomas. I knew he would fight, so for a while now he's been staying in our garage bathroom with a window to see his friends without getting in a fight and killing them. My plan was to breed him with my three largest hens and hatch the chicks to get a decent bird to butcher, that would still free range. This is because he has a lot of breast meat, but is still very small. I thought maybe I could get his muscularity on the larger body frame of my big hens. Well, today was nice so I figured while the rest were free ranging, he could stay in the chicken run while it was empty in order to get some fresh air. He picked a fight with our alpha rooster through from inside the run, and hurt himself on the fencing. My mom and I decided that keeping him totally separate from the other roosters would be more trouble than he's worth, and that we would just find a Cornish to fulfill his purpose. He is to be processed tomorrow. Of course, I got myself attached to him while I've been raising him. He's so beautiful, his tail feathers are longer than his body and he has a gorgeous purple iridescence on his wings. I just love looking at him... I wish we didn't have to kill him, but its better than selling him and him ending up in some certain unmentionable activities. I'm not sure if this was the right place to post this... but any support is appreciated. How do I make myself feel better?