I caught a hawk in the midst of slaughtering my only chicken left from my original hatch. She is a mean tyrant to all chickens but I love her immensely. Her throat is torn open and I can see everything. She is rasping really bad and can't stand. The humane thing is to cull her but I can't! I can't find the hatchet and I practiced with the axe and I have no control. I have a rifle but her head is so small and I'm shaking I'm afraid I'll miss and hurt her more. I have no ether and I can't suffocate her. I don't want to break her neck because I dont' know how and I don't think i'll survive the feeling of it. Please help me. I don't know what to do. She is suffering. my kids are hysterical...i'm trying not to be. What do I do???