...and I'm so scared. I haven't worked outside the home in over 12 years. We homeschool our 4 kids. I *can* go to work, but there are very few jobs I can get quickly that will be flexible AND provide health insurance. And we will need it...hubby has psoriatic arthritis and one kid had all kinds of surgeries and therapies from birth onward...if we ever get dropped, those two at least will never be insurable again. Hubby's medicine alone is $1000/mo. Right now, our insurance company pays for that. If it stops....well, we'll be hurting, and that's no joke. He has hated this job for years. He's felt trapped in it for years, maybe decades. He has not been doing well there the last 2 years. But it has paid for everything.....everything. He has applied for a new job inside the company but doesn't have a lot of hope. I have a vague suspicion they put him in a position he wouldn't do well at, so they could justify moving him out and bringing in younger people who don't get paid so much, don't have families to keep them from working 80 hrs/week, etc. It isn't like I can't get a job...I could get one today, it will just be low paying with very few benefits. There will be Unemployment, presumably. We do have a little savings. I'm scared though. I don't see anywhere else in our budget we can really cut out without being seriously drastic, along the lines of 'canceling the whole-life insurance policy we've been paying into for 15 years, and losing the whole thing'. Though that would happen anyway if we can't pay for it. I am not a pray-er. But I would appreciate prayers. If not that he gets this new job he applied for, at least that he can find something. And that it will not destroy his ego to lose the thing that has defined him for 20 years. That we do not lose the house we have only 8 years left on the mortgage on. That if we must put kids into the public schools, that they will handle the transition well. I am so scared. It's a whole lot of turmoil.