I am new to chickens. In April it will be a year of having them. I'm really discouraged. Last night I lost one of my favorite hens and about 6 weeks ago I lost another one of my hens. They both seemed to have different symptoms. The latest one to die seems like marek's or could be leukosis virus. I get really attached to my birds and in just devastated when one passes on. Chickens are supposed to be easy and relaxing but latkey all I do is stress about who will die next. I have some baby chicks and now I'm regretting getting them in the sadness that when they grow up I will just be sending them off to their death. My chickens get taken care of like goddess. I absolutely love them but now I'm thinking maybe I should keep doing it anymore. I'm really depressed and would love some feedback from people. Thanks.