I'm very proud of myself. I posted and ad online, and a guy responded that he wouldn'tmind showing me how to 'do it right'. He demonstrated and explained each step. First, he put the chicken in a cone, stretched out his neck and sliced the artery - not removing the head. He held the head and feet tightly throughout the spasms and let him bleed out into a bucket. He dipped it in scalding hot water for under a minute, then we plucked him. He cut off the leges and head then went for the guts. He showed me how to separate and prepare the edible stuff, and what parts to avoid. Then he said it was my turn. I was a little nervous, but I feel like if I can't kill it, I don't deserve to eat it, so I sucked it up and did it. I did the WHOLE process myself with a little guidance and some intervention when I was messing up on gutting the bird. Then we cleaned the birds up and bagged em. It feels like one of the most important experiences will ever have. Its like..eating my own home-grown swiss chard - that proud sense of accomplishment.. yea. So.. it's not as hard, scary or gross as I thought it would be, and I can't wait to becoem ' a natural'