At the end of February I had to ut my 9yr old Rottweiler, Karmin, to sleep because of Bone Cancer, it came on very fast and the day after the vet saw her she developed a Huge lump/tumor..She was having a hard time walking, sleeping a lot & I just didn't want her to suffer anymore. It was so hard on me, I got her when I was 14 after I finished Chemotherapy, i wasn't allowed to have pets during treatment. Back in October I had to have surgery to remove cancer cells from my Cervix & was still kind of recovering from that, mostly mentally but also physically. She was my baby, she was everyones baby & we all(including my dad!) cried when we found out. I was very very depressed for a while afterwards. This past weekend, while I was visiting family in Idaho, my grandmother was taking care of my cat, Merlin, for me. I rescued Merlin & 7 kittens at a home where they had tossed some food across the porch and abandoned them all. I brought them all home and found great homes for everyone but decided to keep Merlin, I was already so attached. She was only about 1yr old when i got her. She nearly died after we got her, she developed a terrible case of mastitis, wouldnt eat, drink, had a high fever and slept all the time. I hto compressed her tummy 4 times a day & she was on meds for 2 weeks before she started feeling better. She was my little baby from the start & So gorgeous, you couldnt help but love her once you saw those Huge, crossed Blue eyes. She was so smart & learned her new name within days & was so good with Karmin..you'd ahve thought that dog belonged to her . When I came home from idaho last Sunday I couldnt find her anywhere. It was hot here all weekend so the door was open most of the time, which was fine, she always ran in and out through the day but always came back in for the night. When I asked my grandmother about it she said she hadn't seen her since that morning. I called for her but figured she would be back soon. I called for her for 30 minutes every night this week and she still hasn't come home... I asked the neighbors, registered on all the websites and even posted on Craigslist. I've gotten nothing & no one has seen her. When i lost my dog Merlin really helped me cope with it.."at least i still have my pretty kitty" was what i would tell her..she was very depressed for a while afterwards too. I just feel so lost without her, it hasn't even been 3 months since I lost Karmin. if someone did take her, i just hope that she is in a good home & is being well taken care of. I keep teling myself that, it's easier than thinking that something may have 'gotten' her. I feel like i need a house pet, maybe that sounds dumb but i miss coming home or inside at night and having that loveable little face looking at you like you're the coolest person in the whole wide world or wanting to play or just get loved on.