I am losing my mind. I swear. We are so confined right now there is just no room to do anything and we can no longer ease that by spending time outside. I keep looking at houses so we can move out of my parents house on the farm. The house in town is not selling fast enough and even if it sold right now we could not start building. I am so desperate I am ready to scrap building and just buy. The hill is so steep to the farm too that my van cannot get up the hill. Spring hits and the van is history. Spring hits and the kids are getting a playhouse too. I need some space. I doesn't help that I am locked in with all the kids every day since we homeschool or that we know nobody out here. Its 45 min to the friends we know. What was I thinking in making this move. Self sufficiency would be great but if I am insane it may all be for nothing. Ok disclosure time I have not slept great in almost a month and winter weather always depresses me so things may not be as bad as they are seeming to me. I tell myself and then call myself a liar. lol I am laughing about all this just to keep my head on straight. I just really want it to be spring. I love spring. I love fall. I am not fond of seasons where everything is dead or dying. Dollar General had seeds even. yes I got desperate and bought a couple packets of sunflowers and such. I'll probably pull out the catalogs and get my garden list completed and ordered. I might even get desperate enough to take the kiddies to the mall to play. Not the greatest option but its really too cold out to do much playing. I'm not venting my frustrations now. So what is everyone else struggling through this winter.