Lost my beloved Bambi tonight.

Discussion in 'Ducks' started by Goat_Walker, Jan 5, 2011.

  1. Goat_Walker

    Goat_Walker I Am THE Crazy Duck Lady

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    I come home to my poor scovie girl splattered across the road. I had to pick her up and carry her home in the dark. I also had to pick up her intestines and pelvic bone by hand so nothing would eat any part of her.

    Im distraught. Broken. I dont care if she was a duck - she was my duck. And now she is gone.

    The sad part is i cant even explain what happened on here because i will get reprimanded by people on here. Because its 'my fault'. My baby girl is gone and there is nothing i can do as my heart turns to ash. Tonight i had to put my friend in a trash can because the ground igt too hard and its pitch black out. That feeling cant be understood by those who havent personally experienced it.
     
  2. gofasterstripe

    gofasterstripe Chillin' With My Peeps

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    So sorry to hear about your baby. [​IMG]
     
  3. KimberlyJ

    KimberlyJ Chillin' With My Peeps

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    [​IMG] So sorry for your loss.
     
  4. iamcuriositycat

    iamcuriositycat Chillin' With My Peeps

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    No reprimands here. You are a good and caring duck mom. It's a natural part of the grieving process to feel guilty and blame yourself, but remember that no one is perfect and all that matters is that we do the best we can. Let the person who has never made a mistake cast the first stone.

    I'm so sorry for your loss. That is devastating. I lost my beloved ocicat in much the same way--I threw him outside in a thunderstorm because he was being loud and I was exhausted and a new mom, and he was caterwauling all night long. Something got him and killed him and I didn't find his body until it was full of maggots and being eaten by vultures. I had to drive the vultures off from his stinking body in order to bury it. Not a pleasant memory.

    But I've learned to forgive myself, and you can too.

    For now, though, just grieve and know that there are folks out here grieving for you and sending peaceful thoughts your way.

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  5. slightlyscrambled

    slightlyscrambled Chillin' With My Peeps

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  6. sonew123

    sonew123 Poultry Snuggie

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    aWWWWW hunny Im so sorry [​IMG]
     
  7. terrilhb

    terrilhb Chillin' With My Peeps

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    [​IMG] I am so sorry. It does not matter what she was she was your baby. I am so sorry for your loss. You were a good mommy. God Bless
     
  8. Miss Lydia

    Miss Lydia Running over with Blessings Premium Member

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    I too am so sorry for your loss, [​IMG]
     
  9. ejctm

    ejctm Chillin' With My Peeps

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    Hey GW, Sorry to hear about your precious duck. They are all so special in their own way. Don't let anyone tell you she was just a duck - she was part of your family.

    Life is too short to feel guilty. We all make mistakes and take risks and most of the time it all works out fine. Don't beat yourself up about it. We are all only human after all.

    I'm sure Bambi knew how much you cared for her, and you gave her a good and happy life. Remember all the happy times with her. [​IMG]
     
  10. SilverPhoenix

    SilverPhoenix Bantam Fanatic

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    I'm so sorry about your Bambi. [​IMG] It's especially traumatic when you have to deal with cleaning up their badly mangled bodies, too... That's the sort of thing that stays with you. No criticism at all here--we all lose birds to mistakes and accidents sometimes. At least she hopefully had a quick end, and I'm sure you gave her a good life. Keep the memories of her within you fondly... I'm sorry you had to lose her.
     

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