I am heart broken. I lost one of my best friends today. My fat cat "Poozel". I know it's only a cat.. but hey this guy stole my heart. I can't stop tearing up... gee girl buck up! You live on a farm... this is the real world.....It's only a cat It might have only been a cat... but he was my baby and I loved him. I'd had Poozel for 7 years. I got him 12 months after I first moved out of home. He was 9kg heavy at his biggest... he wasn't fat, he was just HUGE. He used to sleep on my bed till we moved to the farm. Oh how I wish we could have just one more night. I spent well over $3,000 in vet bills on this cat. He always had a sick tummy and for him I would spare no expense. As my new vet said when we moved here ... "Wow your cat has been biopsied from bumhole to breakfast." We first met the local vet when I rushed Poozel to the clinic, after hours, and spent my weekly shopping budget on him... Seeing as we are living on a reduced income nowadays we literally lived out of the cupboards for the next week because we could not afford to eat! I saw Poozel for the last time late afternoon on wednesday. I was watching him from my bedroom window. He meowed at me once or twice and looked so happy sitting on the lawn in the sun. I can see him in my mind as thought it just happened now. I didn't find him that evening.. and when he hadn't come home by lunch time thursday I was worried. He had always been an indoor cat in town.. and had only been allowed outside since we moved out of the city. I called and called for him... day and night but he didn't come home. I knew something was wrong. At about 7pm this evening I found his body next to the front step of the verandah. I know he wasn't there at 2am this morning... because that is exactly where I stood when I was calling for him. When I saw him I yelled out to my hubby that I'd found Poozel and asked him to come and see why he was dead.. and then the water works started. I don't know why he died. He used to get a bad bladder due to stress so I just hope that he didn't get a bladder blockage and that I didn't notice. He's never had a blockage before so I doubt that was it. It could have been a snake bite? He had a small bit of blood from his bottom when he was found.. but otherwise he was perfect. We put him in a box where he wasn't cramped. He still looked so beautiful, his fur felt like he stuill could have been alive. I wanted to pick him up and bring him back inside... but I knew I couldn't. We buried him under my favourite oak tree... in a garden bed yet to be planted. That is my Poozel's garden... forever. Oh how I will miss this fat, naughty cat. Christmas Cat - Christmas 2010 R.I.P Poozel Berry (Mr Whiskers)... I loved you too much.