My mother's day gift to myself.

Discussion in 'Random Ramblings' started by luvmychicknkids, May 10, 2009.

  1. luvmychicknkids

    luvmychicknkids Canning Squirrel

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    Kind of an odd one I suppose. As some here know, I have lived without my husband for the past 4 years and have one more to go (NO, not prison, Military for those who don't know). Anyway, I have been extremely stressed lately. I mean REALLY bad. Almost feel like I am falling apart and kinda go through the motions of life like a zombie of sorts. So when I was talking to hubby last night I just broke down. I started crying and got mad and let it all out. He started out getting a bit defensive (who wouldn't) but realized what was happening. Anyway, I did this until my eyes were so puffy I couldn't see and I felt like I was all cried out. Finished out conversation on very good terms then went to bed. OMG I woke up this morning and felt 10 years younger. Physically and mentally. I felt happy for the first time in so long I can't remember. I feel lighter (well, the scale is LYING about that!!!) and like a new person!!!!

    Anyway, I just had to share. I know I shouldn't keep my feelings from my husband. I don't like to but I also try not to worry him so I had just let this build and build. Even though I know he can't make it better right now, just sharing and hearing how much he truly cares made all the difference!!! [​IMG]
     
  2. tazcat70

    tazcat70 I must be crazy!

    Sometimes just blowing up...or having a melt down does wonders for a person.

    Glad you are feeling so much better!
     
  3. luvmychicknkids

    luvmychicknkids Canning Squirrel

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    Thanks. [​IMG] I was actually amazed at how much good it did!!! I emailed him immediately saying OMG I feel HUMAN!!!! LOL
     
  4. maplesky7

    maplesky7 Flock Mistress

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    Can I feel "human" with ya? [​IMG]
     
  5. luvmychicknkids

    luvmychicknkids Canning Squirrel

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    Yes you sure can!!!! I would be happy for you to, in fact. I had almost forgotten what it feels like. [​IMG] [​IMG]
     
  6. Barry

    Barry Chillin' With My Peeps

    I know how hard it is with military separation, but not for as long as 4 years.
    You deserve a medal!
     
  7. debilorrah

    debilorrah The Great Guru of Yap Premium Member

    Meltdowns are self-therapy. We can only take so much before we crack and then we wonder why we waited so long. [​IMG]
     
  8. Mourningdove

    Mourningdove Chillin' With My Peeps

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    I am happy for ya! Now maybe this year will fly fast while waiting for him! [​IMG] to you as I don't think I could have been that strong!
    I wish I was able to vent maybe I could feel better about myself!
    Happy Mothers Day!
     
  9. luvmychicknkids

    luvmychicknkids Canning Squirrel

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    Thanks so much guys. And you are so right Debbi......I think we need to do it BEFORE we get to the point I was. One of the things I told him was that everyone seems to think I am so strong but I am NOT.....I just do what I have to and sometimes I really just can't handle it. But yes, I think it will go quick. I am so ready to have my family back together like it should be. Then I have to move back to the kitchen permanently!!! LOL And Mourningdove, if you need to vent, find a way....believe me, it is worth it. I was honestly considering a therapist until I decided my husband was a much better choice.
     
  10. wyo-helpmeet

    wyo-helpmeet Chillin' With My Peeps

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    Thank you to both you & your husband. ((HUGGLES))
     

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