DH GOT THE LETTER TODAY THEY DENIED HIM HIS UNEMPLOYMENT. he is too sick to find another job, meds are wrecking havock on him , so I will no longer be on here cause we have to have the phone and internet cut off . the tv is being cut off also now to try to find some way to pay light bill and car insurance. I could care less about the other things and I guess I could make it without electricity but it sure would be hard, but i can manage i guess. I guess the next thing is we will be homeless before long and have to live in the car I guess. oh well I like camping. I know that God can make a way but it sure does seem like he is taking his time doing it. nah I trust him I will not loose my home and he will make some way for us to pay the light bill and insurance. OH my hearing for my social security is the 3rd of august so please everyone keep praying for us. It just gets so hard when you feel like you have been abandoned and all alone. DH is in a depression like I have never seen him before, It really worries me. He use to be this big strong man that always took care of his family and now he feels like he has let us down but he's not we know he is sick. He can barely hold his head up and can barely walk but this depression he is in really has me soooo worried and that is not good on my health either, my chest has been hurting me off and on all day again I had to take my last nitro pill a little bit ago, maybe God will just take me out to go on home then I won't have to worry anymore. sorry I am done feeling sorry for myself now. but please pray for us.