Over-educated housewife has foaming at the mouth rant

Discussion in 'Family Life - Stories, Pictures & Updates' started by StupidBird, Aug 19, 2011.

  1. StupidBird

    StupidBird Chillin' With My Peeps

    Apr 8, 2009
    I just got really, really speechless mad, Ya'll can just ignore this. Really.

    6 years of college, twice delayed due to the finances and reality of small children/babies. Finally graduate, get a job 5 months later.
    2 months shy of getting my state license, my health has a major meltdown. A misdiagnosed/mistreated chronic problem flared. I nearly died several occasions, only well afterwards realizing that. Forced to quit my job.

    So, almost ten years later.

    Most days I can be out of bed now, a major improvement. Still lots and lots of pain. Random breathing or allergic meltdowns due to exposure to a gazillion triggers. At least I've avoided the ER this week (almost...). Got my second epidural just a few days ago - now there's some fun. The air quality is in the orange zone yet again, so I'm supposed to stay indoors. With the nerve problem, I'm only supposed to go 20 mins tops on the computer.

    HOW THE (&(**%#[email protected]$^% am I supposed to find a job these days? I feel completely useless. Really. And, since I am the only one at this place without a job, every little thing is left for good ol' me to take care of. And if I'm sick for even a day, everything's a wreck. Literally, not a dish gets done. And if the new pup has accidents? well, everyone is in to much of a hurry to get out the door for work to clean up - left for me. Who, as they well know is really, really allergic to dogs. I just spent an hour scrubbing the floor and popping drugs. Who had to walk the poor pup at dawn when everyone who had paying jobs rushed out? I could go on way, way too long.

    I really sometimes just want to throw my few things in the truck and go to Alaska. Oh, wait. Not my truck. It's in someone else's name 'cause I was too sick to go to the bank to sign the papers.

    I am having a BAD day. I'll probably come back and delete this later. MFTS2BB.
  2. annaraven

    annaraven Born this way

    Apr 15, 2010
    SillyCon Valley
  3. RGBistro

    RGBistro Chillin' With My Peeps

    Jun 17, 2011
    Orange County, CA
    I personally find that venting and getting it all out helps a lot. And you did that. So, hope you're feeling better soon. It's FRIDAY!!!
  4. Two Creeks Farm

    Two Creeks Farm Chillin' With My Peeps

    Apr 23, 2011
    Hedgesville, WV
    It does good to vent.

    And you arent alone.

    19 years busting my butt at a great job only to get sick and have to work at every detail in my life now due to illness....everything is magnified due to the health issues! You just have to do the best you can with what you got...where your at. There is always those out there that have it worse!!
  5. smarquis86

    smarquis86 Chillin' With My Peeps

    Apr 17, 2011
    Yakima, WA
    sorry to here that. hope your day gets better. [​IMG]
  6. m_shuman

    m_shuman Chillin' With My Peeps

    Apr 22, 2011
    Springfield, GA
    I will pray that your day and health get better! I too stay home and feel unappreciated because I no longer "make the money." BC (before children) I was an AVP for one of the nations largest banks and now I raise the kids DH's request not mine yet he dosen't give me half of the credit I deserve.
  7. justinwrites

    justinwrites Chillin' With My Peeps

    Aug 4, 2011
    Oskaloosa, KS
    Kinda the same boat. Finished school with a degree no one wants (my bad) but heaven forbid I have an after dinner errand. The dishes and all wait for me, not even a cleared table. I have constrictive pericarditis (sp?) and have to do everything at my own pace.

    Right now my wife can have all the hours she wants at work and she makes in one shift more than I can make in a week at any job I've got half a chance of getting. So, I stay home with the kids and she picks up overtime. And she really does prefer work over house work. I guess my complaint is that my family could at least pick up their own mess. Between the chickens, garden, and cleaning I"m a busy hubby.

    In short, I feel ya.
  8. I have WHAT in my yard?

    I have WHAT in my yard? Chillin' With My Peeps

    Jun 24, 2008
    Eggberg, PA
    Hear hear!!

    Over educated but I can work flexible nd part time to handle children and DHs job isn't geared toward that so he works. Alot.

    It's not that I don't appreciate how hard he works or the sacrifices he makes to keep us in food and shelter, but there are days when I feel. ... well my friend said me being home with kids was like putting a Maserati in the garage -- with the engine running. [​IMG]

    I wish I could get work making what he makes so he could stay home for a while. The house would be more organized and probably cleaner. Not sure the kids would be happier though.

    Vent away dear....
  9. StupidBird

    StupidBird Chillin' With My Peeps

    Apr 8, 2009

    I've taken a little break and stuffed myself silly with carbs and chocolate.
    DH is pretty great, usually, work is a b and I guilt over it (he's gotta stay - economy, health insurance)

    "like putting a Maserati in the garage -- with the engine running. " lol. The degree is still in demand, but not one I can work with these health issues.

    Thank goodness for the chickens. Yup, chickens, garden, cleaning. (the pup did it again, poor thing, and is outside for the rest of the day - shade, water, etc)

    It's FRIDAY!!! Just got off the phone with DH, date night is at the shooting range - we'll go blow shtuff up and feel better.
  10. SarahFair

    SarahFair Chillin' With My Peeps

    Sep 23, 2008
    Monroe, Ga
    While I'm not as schooled as some it still sucks to be under appreciated.
    I've tried going on strike but it just makes me more miserable in the end (cause I'm the one that has to do the mountain of laundry and every last dish in the house... and since I'm here all day trip over all the toys and junk)

    Just leaave pup outside.. [​IMG]
    Hell live

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