I am grateful to have the part time job I am going to be starting in a few weeks. The hours are perfect. I get to drop off and pick up my daughter at school still. I dont work days the kids are off and my last day of work is her last day of school. I have the summer off and go back come fall. I am lucky. But. I want more. I want to go back to work full time. There are jobs out there. I can easily get one even with the amount of people looking for the same. But, here's the problem. I cant find after school care for my daughter that A) is open past 4:30 B) will pick her up from the school C) I trust Never mind summer care! After reading about poor Sandra Cantu in CA and that monster "mom" that is now under arrest for her murder. I am even more wary and untrusting of people than I was previously. Which is pretty bad since my trust level is next to 0 as it is. I dont "need" to go back to work full time. But I want to. I miss working and earning a decent paycheck. But the thought of leaving my kid with someone outside of the school. Which I am also not keen on to tell ya the truth. Makes me ill. My dh and I have discussed with my mom us putting the house we have up on the market.. or even just walking away from it completely and letting Wells Fargo have it. And moving in with her. She could use the help around the house. And the money from my dh and I would be more than a little help to her.(she is retired and takes care of her dh who had a stroke 4 years ago) Plus they are closer to my dh's work so his commute would not only be shorter. But cheaper. The school system is better. The town as a whole is safer. The families in the neighborhood have been there for nearly 50 years. I am the only one that moved so far away. If it were just my dh and I it wouldnt be a issue. But I want my kid to be safe. I dont want her education to suffer. And I need to WORK! Mommy has needs and wants!!! If I could find the care I need for her here I would be so thrilled. But I just havent seen it.