So last it's been 2 weeks of the ups and downs dealing with a prolapsed vent, and then her not eating, straining in pain, not acting like her crazy sassy self that I always loved. Early this morning, she left us. Ugh, the worst feeling is feeling so helpless when the only thing you want to do is just make your baby better. I feel like I failed her, and it kills me. I literally tried anything and everything I could do to help. Haven't eaten in days, been watching her on camera while I'm at work to make sure she's still alive, and staying up all night long scared to leave her. I told her last night before I finally was turning in for the night "pretty girl I'm so proud of you, you have been so strong, if you need to go, I understand - just promise momma you will be watching me from above that's all I ask" (she looked so out of it and shaking and I could tell she was trying so hard to just keep going for me - to make me proud.) You want to talk about hard ... that was a tough one. She only knew me when it came to a mom and I was lucky enough to call her one of my kids. I hate when people say "they're just birds, they're just a chicken" - no actually not. They're my kids. I hatch them, raise them, spends hours with them every day, so no they're not "just a chicken" they're family.
I know one thing I have been dealing with and contemplating a lot lately and that's the big question I think a lot of us are curious about ... do our animals go to Heaven? And my answer is I really hope so. Would Heaven really be Heaven without our dear friends? No way, at least to me it wouldn't be that's for sure. I hope you guys enjoy the story of her life and her pictures posted below. She can't and won't ever be replaced. Chickens like that leave a mark on you, and she will forever be in my heart. Momma loves you Sarah, more than you will ever know and I can't wait until the day I get to see you again and pick you up and sway you back and forth saying "pretty girl my pretty girl" while you look at me like I'm the most beautiful person in the world. Sarah - if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.
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