Just no motivation to get anything done. I have so much, well, not really. The list is short, but one of the tasks will take a couple hours.. But I have to go to the post office.. I hate the post office. It's only five minutes away, but it always takes soooooooo long, and I hate waiting in line. Also, I'm sending in my application to try and gain my Hawaii state EMT license.. I am not hopeful that they will give it to me. And I think this is why I have avoided sending it in for the last three weeks. I have it all filled out, stuck in an envelope, The envelope isn't addressed yet. But it will be. Before I leave the house. I have done quite a bit of research on gaining my license here. New York was easy, it just took a while to get all my papers together. I gave them $50 and they gave me a license. Although Nevada was just frustrating. I passes the class, got my license, but then learned the county I grew up in did not hire EMT basics. Only intermediate, and paramedic. So I never got a chance to work with it back home. I was going to enroll in the next class up, but my fiance asked me to move in with him... 3,000 miles away.. We were only there for eight months, so I didn't have any time to try and get enrolled. Then we moved again, and here I am. Feeling sorry for myself, which I know doesn't help anything... I know I just need to get on it, send it in, what's the worse they can do? Say no? Well, I'm already feeling down about the whole story, so I guess it would just give me the motivation and knowledge of what I have to do, instead of sit here and think "what if" and waste time about it. I know what I do have to do if they say no, but even if they say yes I still have to take a few additional courses to be able to egt work anywhere... Hmph. Well. I know that even though I feel down about it right now, I should not let it consume me, and I know that I have a lot more than some other people out there. I should think of the possitive outcome of the future, I know that these classes will be taken, and I will get my license, and I will work on that ambulance. It may again just take longer than I had hoped. Again.