I need to vent. normally i am a easy going person, who loves everything about life. But right now, i cant love my life!! im going crazy. Im a stay at home mom, wife of a trucker. i cant STAND it any more. my hubby missed the 3rd thanksgiving in a row. i have no idea if he will be home for Christmas. i HATE looking in to my little girls eyes and tell them i dont know when their daddy will be home . i hate going to bed alone every nite. i hate not knowing when i will see him again i hate not knowing when i will smell him again. its been 15 weeks. i havent seen, hugged or kissed my husband in 15 weeks the holidays are soo important to me, its family time. but i cant stand being around my parents ... my sisters.. my brothers not right now. its too painful, they ask about shawn, and i have to go through the whole 'i dont know when he will be home' and 'yeah it sucks' and 'yeah its hard on the kids' then i hit rock bottom again . cant they just assume that if hes not with me to please not bring it up? i miss him. i miss him so much that it hurts. i call his dispatcher,and it doesnt help. i think it makes it worse. all i want is my husband home for more than over nite, like a few days. i talked to him for over an hour tonite, after the kids were in bed, just crying and going on and on on how much we miss eachother, how much we wish we could afford for him to stay home for a week, or even 2 ok thanks for listening. if you could toss in a few prayers for some strength for me , i would appreciate it.