still think about my 2 hens i lost everyday

[michelleh2294]

my 2 hens were killed by we think a fox and i still think about them and miss them everyday...still so haunted that i had these girls for 3 yrs and now they are gone...and seeing them dead just stil haunts me, its been a month now...my new 12 wk old hens are cute but i know it will never be the same, and my hen ruby the last of the orginals is kind of bossing them around and yet tryng sometimes to hangout with them, but its usually her off by herself and the 3 of them together...wonder if they will ever form a true flock of 4

 

[ILuvMyFlock]

I'm sorry that happened, I've lost a few that meant so much to me... It's never easy.

Not too long ago I had a Royal palm turkey, he was so beautiful and sweet, one night I found him dead, he was still warm, a possum I'm assuming beheaded him, that picture still haunts me. It was so hard on me I grabbed him up and just held him balling like a baby, I went searching in shock hoping I could piece him back together, I didn't want to bury him like that... but I never found the rest of him.

Another haunting image was coming home to see a hawk nearly behead a roo, he flew off, and I wanted to save the roo, I did my best to comfort the roo but he died.

I have many more haunting memories... but we must press on and try to remember the good, they're no longer suffering, I truly believe they're in a better place where there's no pain, death,or sorrow only never-ending joy.

Never feel guilty and I know that's hard because I too blame myself I keep saying you could have / should have done more, but how could we have done more? sadly no matter how hard we try we can't prevent death from happening, and vermin will find a way, it's just sad.

 

[michelleh2294]

we lost luna after my boyfriend forgot and left the coop open, then 3 weks later it was locked and we think a fox got in and got dahlia, i was so attatched to these chickens and loved them so much and just enjoyed hanging out with them in the yard....i feel guilty like you said casue i always used to ask when i got home from work are chickens locked up, but that night i didnt and i feel like that set the whole thing in motion......when we heard luna scream that horrible chicken sceam we went running down and couldnt find her till morning light, i hoped and prayed that she would be wandering around alive and then i found her dead under the tree...it was heartbreaking.....then when i heard that scream again i just screamed from the house and went down and he said dahlia was dead...dahlia was my strong survivor girl, she had 100 stitches from a pit bull that gcame in our yard and after the vet and 150.00 she was completely back to normal, then this happened....just devastated...by all of this.....i feel too like i will never love these new ones like i have my 3 original, ruby has become really personalble now and we will see how the others turn out....so sorry for what you have been thru, i always blame myself somehow that i shoulvdve and couldhave done better.....then last night mark was doing some weedeating and saw a coyote, its never ending, so he chased it away, i feel now like i want my chicken coop to be made from cincderblock,,,,thanks for your reply

 

[ILuvMyFlock]

Wow that's terrible, I'm so sorry... Don't blame yourself, I know it's hard because I too have a tendency to blame myself.

When I lose birds people tell me things they think is comforting but it's not... They'll say oh you can always get another bird, but they just don't get that another bird won't ever replace the bird that died. I will say that even though a new bird will never replace an old bird, the new bird can help ease the pain if that makes sense, and I know it's hard to love again due to the fear of being attached with the possibility of losing another bird, but take comfort in knowing that even the new birds need loved, and if something bad happens know that they were loved and that they were happy.

Open your heart and let healing come, there's a time to mourn, there's a time and season for everything, but it can't rain all the time, the sun will shine and when it does you'll breathe again. Don't let fear control you, walk boldly in the face of that fear, love again welcome that love with open arms, yes you may lose another bird but it would be much better for the bird to die knowing it had been loved and wanted, not only does the bird need loved, but you need to be loved too. There's nothing wrong with giving yourself time to heal, so never feel ashamed if you have to take a break from raising birds, everyone heals differently, but I always recommend keeping the heart open. I know this sounds goofy, but think about Jane Seymours lovely open heart necklace, that's how our hearts should be. I'll be praying for you. I'm here if you need to talk further - hugs.

 

[sjango]

I fear for my upcoming flock, because I know Coyotes rome these parts. I'm going to secure my coop and run as best I can.

 

[ILuvMyFlock]

We get coyotes here too, along with chicken Hawks, coons, possums, and foxes.

 

[sjango]

The predators are out there, pretty much no matter where you're stationed, your bound to have something that could pose potential problems for your flock. All we can do is be diligent owners and try our best to keep them away.

 

[michelleh2294]

to; iluvmyflock.....thank you so much for your story, your kind words all mean alot

 

[ILuvMyFlock]

You're very welcome, hugs.

 

[michelleh2294]

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to; iluvmyflock............i meant to say thanks for the ecouraging words too, its nice when someone else understands what your going thru, my boyfriend sems to have moved on and im still having a hard time, so thanks again, michelle