Hello, me again....I'm getting back into chicklets, been lurking for a while, I will be getting a crippled roo soon (wont be living in my apartment, but with a nearby friend) anyway, my husband is bi-polar. He only gets manic once in a while & then everything hits the fan. He gets a God-complex, talks complete blather that makes no sense, spend hours scribbling weird stuff on paper, is in my face constantly---AAAAAAAGH!!!! It was so bad last night that I had to escape him for about half an hour. I am ashamed of that, I love him so much. When he gets this way he rambles about death & he says he hates me, threatens to leave, yells, ect..... he doesn't know he's yelling tho, but if I tell him to please keep it down he gets really defensive & then shouts louder. It lasts usually for 10 days. We had a pal staying with us for 8 days & Nate talked, whispered, blabbered the entire time. His voice is almost gone, & I'm about to scream. He takes every little thing as a personal insult during these times, stomps off mad & leaves me confused. He usually doesn't need medicine & wont take it anyway. The only thing that helps him is mildly illegal. I know he doesn't mean it when he says he hates me, but its distressing. ----talks about hell, how he's god & how he is only allowing the world to keep being so cruel. says he alone can save the universe, ect////// makes me want to slap him. last night I had to run off to the nearest pub.