I have been out of work for the most part of the last two weeks now. I know I have the fibroids. They were the cause of many miscarriages. Didnt find this out til I got pregnant with my daughter, who is now 8. I went to my obgyn 5 months ago because I was nauseas all the time and felt like I was carrying around rocks in my belly. Well the fibroids had grown back and my uterus is the size of a pregnancy at 3 months due to them. No excessive bleeding.. just discomfort and nausea. Told "monitor them" Well Three weeks ago I have a one day, scant period. So not normal for me. Then OH THE PAIN. Not just discomfort. PAIN. Felt like I had done something to my hip. Thought I walked into something and bruised it.. but no bruise. I went two weeks thinking. It'll get better. Nope steadily worse. Made a appt to see doct. Was bullied into cancelling it by the dept head at work. Finally last Tues I couldnt move without feeling like I was going to pass out. Called out and went to see doc. First thought diverticulitis. Nope. They sent me for an u/s. Got the results Monday. Saw obg yesterday am. Now they have me set up for a MRI and consult for a fibroid embolization. Which will only kill the ones already causing the pain.. but wont stop this issue. I guess the pain is from one that is sitting on my left ovary. Oh.. and has GROWN to nearly twice its size in the last 5 months. I am tired of being in pain.I am tired of the nausea. I am tired of being out of work. I am tired of knowing that these are not going to stop or go away unless I have a hysterectomy or a partial one. Which I am not afraid of having. I am 41. My husband had the big V years ago. We only wanted one child, which we are blessed to have. The fibroids made fertility and pregnancy awful for me. I really actually would prefer to have my uterus removed. From what I gather.. I have a uterus FULL of them. I dont want to have to monitor them. Meaning an u/s every 3 months at this point. And potentially MORE unpaid time off if they should cause issues in the future. Which they are pretty nearly guaranteed to do! Plus I am scared. I know that my employer is going to fire me. It's a no brainer. While I hate my employer. I LOVE my job. Helping people choose manadated health insurance and all. I love my members. Plus I love my co workers. And jobs are not easily come by. And there are so many what if's. I dont want to start a new job and then have this happen again! But my obg is really not wanting to go for the partial hys. Which I am more than ok with and feel I am the perfect candidate for. My sister friend went through this at 20 something. She had two embolizations done. The fibroids continued and after two children and YEARS of pain.. they finally did a partial for her at 30. I am older. Have already chosen to not have more children. Why are they freaking torturing me like this? This is effecting my income and job for crying out loud. I am not asking for something experimental here. edited to add. They have me on Vicodens. they barely touch the pain. They are putting me on something stronger.. I am not into taking these pain meds.never mind something stronger. But the pain is awful.