I just wanted to chime in and say Hi but also to let you know that I'm crying right now reading your posts about your kitties but especially about your Cassy because this last summer I lost a very very special kitty named Cassie(originally spelled Cassy) who was a 15 year old domestic shorthair patchwork calico. She had cancer and we no sooner found out than three days later her body began to shut down and we had to make the decision to end her suffering. I still wake up reaching for her thinking it's a nightmare when I relive having to make that choice in my head at night. It's something I'm trying hard to let go of. In truth I know I made the right decision the only fair decision for her and it was so very very peaceful, but I think those of us who truly love cats(or whatever the animal may be) always wonder if we could have done more. I know that with time I won't feel the pain as often but I know I'll never forget her. She was mine from just a few weeks old when we chose her and her sister. She'll always be mine and I'll always Cassie be hers, but the greatest thing about my Cassie was how full of love she was and I know for a fact that she would not want me to be sad. That was always her mission when I was crying to purr in my arms.
Two weeks before Cassie went to sleep in my arms for the last time I received an orphaned day old kitten to raise after my DH2B's father had a horrible accident with a barn cat and her litter. They wanted the kitten back, but eventually backed out, and I kept her. My little Luna is not so little any more. She's a mischievous six month old and is quite a sassy thing, but she got to meet Cassie a couple of times before Cassie was diagnosed and to this day she has some Cassie like traits. She's not Cassie. she'll never be Cassie, but she doesn't need to be. All she needs to be is something I love that loves me and be her own kitty. She has helped me heal a lot, believe it or not. She was a reminder as a two week old helpless kitten that Cassie wouldn't want me to mourn by closing off my heart(impossible since we have four other house cats-pre Luna, and 3 dogs and now a bunny) Cassie would have wanted me to spread the love she gave me. I am happy to see that you decided to spread that love too.