Yeah! I was gone for a weekend and when I came back, there were something like 6 new people!
Wow that's great! I'm always amazed by it too, sometimes i see people mention Him in other threads and I'm like wow I didn't know you were Christian too!
I've seen this thread a few times recently but I never joined because tbh I thought it might be weird but now it's like everyone I've seen around BYC!
And tbh, this probably sounds crazy but I think I picked a good time to join or rather, God picked for me
The reason is because of @EggSighted4Life post. I tend to subscribe but then not necessarily keep up so if I had joined any earlier I might not have seen Eggsighted's post.
And just want to say that wow Eggsighted, your story is pretty similar to mine!
Not the childhood part, I think my childhood was probably pretty good, but my mom does drink, probably started 10-15 years ago? Gotten progressively worse the last say 5. My parents also fight more and now fight quite a bit. Definitely stressful living here hah I think there's probably underlying mental illnesses too.
But they're both good people and i knew we were loved and stuff.
But anyway, the real similarities start with your daughter. I too used to cut, although I always told myself it wasn't that bad because at least I didn't do it deep like some people. What a lie that was. It's all bad. Thankfully I don't do it anymore though. I started off and on in 2012 and could go a few weeks or months, the longest I went was 3 months but then I broke and I got SO MAD one little thing could ruin it so I just quit right then for a whole year. Definitely became a lot closer to God during that time and I honestly think I wouldn't have been able to quit if it wasn't for Him. 2012 was also when I graduated high school and went to college so it was definitely kind of hard. And actually, my friend had told the high school after the first time in January and I didnt do it for 3 months but I didnt end up getting help. Anyway, fast forward to August when I went to college (I went early). I met my best friend who was also in the program and we became good friends before regular school started. Then my roommate left after 2 weeks and I had the whole place to myself and my friend basically moved in lol we were inseparable. Which was good because, excuse me for saying this/sorry for any offense, the first 3 months were literal hell and I was crying all the time and I even tried to do it a few times when my friend would leave but, and this is another area where God helped, she would get back before I could do anything. Actually, sorry, I got the story mixed up, I stopped in August, the thing where I made it 3 months was October THEN I quit for the year, so I was still in it at this time AND away for the first time. But my friend helped me so much and was so nice, really comforted me a lot, we talked about a lot, she even wrote me a letter about how great I was one time when I was especially down.
Anyway, long story short (really sorry I started rambling and getting away from the main story), December 2013, 1 year 2 months later, I broke again and I started doing it off and on again all of 2014
BUT. (and here's the amazing part)
August 2014 I realized I was sick of living like this. So I quit again.
And now I have been clean for 2 years, 3 in August.
And it's kind of funny because I thought I was close to God back then but each time I get progressively closer.
And not gonna lie there were a few times when I drifted away but I always came back.
Right now I'm trying to get closer cause I don't feel that close.
But I've been reading these two devotionals I have every morning.
So I guess it's a step.
Anyway, my parents of course think I quit in 2012 and don't know I started and stopped so many times or anything but I guess the important thing is now I'm clean.
I almost broke during the first year of this one too, one year was like the new challenge, but it struck me I can't keep getting to 1 year and breaking, I am going to have to get past it eventually, so I did.
I still sometimes think about it but not nearly as much as I did and I would never do it now.
Anyway, sorry I got so long winded and off topic/confusing/side tracked, bad habit
But the other similarity is the junk food.
I eat terribly but especially the last year or two and have put on a lot of weight hah
And now apparently have pre-diabetes according to the recent physical.
So I've been trying to eat healthy but junk food is so GOOD that it's hard aha
But I'm working on it.
Anyway, thanks for the nice welcomes and sorry that my post probably made zero sense, I will try not to talk as much from now on.
Bad habit of including too much detail ha
