- Aug 12, 2014
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so please excuse my talk as i dont sensor things...as what you see and read is from the heart and i dont sensor anything when it comes to family, friends, and ofcourse my birds.....i will keep on posting as there is alot of people pming me and speaking up on the continuance of this forum....please keep in mind i am doing this for my grandfather as well as you people out there....he passed last year....and now this is past personal...this is on an emotional point...my love for him and what he did on the farm is like no other...he pushed me to be the person i am today and voice my opinion the way i do...right now def breaking down just the thought of him...it was hard and i will be honest...when it happened...his death...bad things happened after his passing.....but this forum has been created for him and all the things he pushed me to do thru life...this forum was created to show people on a daily basis what i do...and what one person can do if he/she puts there mind to it....and so far it has helped me stay on a good track instead of getting into trouble...when that day happened...i shouldnt even write this but this is real life forum talk now...but i went in...and im blessed to be able to share my life and the experiences i go thru...right here...with that being said....i have two people that are paid thru the state of michigan to watch me and make sure i dont leave the state and im a good boy....so attimus...when your ready i have to get the judge to give me permission to leave the state...and until now....now you know how difficult it has been for me since the time of the incident...as i worked for the state of wisconsin as a maximum prison guard for years and have saved many peoples lives...even got recommendations for saving their lives thru the secretary of the state...i suffer from post traumatic stress disorder or ptsd....anything with death brings flashbacks of even the slightest things...and it happened all when i got the package of the birds....thats all it took....and boom...so i keep my head up strong and think of the positive and all the peoples lives that i have influenced on getting birds....all the people that i have spoken to about birds and there love for them...and the people i have helped out all over the us with birds....and realize no matter what you will rise and you will be strong...and as my gpa would tell me do what you love, do what makes you happy, and do everything that makes you happy....
so since we are getting so personal...might as well make it deeper for the world to see...this is my dads dad....and i am in the shades....he fell off a roof and died a while back....all i can say...which im kindof speechless right now....and that doesnt happen all that often...is dad i know your going to read this at some point...and i want to say for the whole world to see that i love you...i know i have never said it before because of our different styles of lives...but it feels good to say it....so now you know....bet you didnt know i had this pic...well i do...now everyone can see
and this is my moms dad whom this forum was dedicated to....who recently passed...
and as the screen im looking at is pretty much blurry right now....and i can barely see it...i have to go...i cant express the emotions i have right now...but there is some of them...im going to spend some time with my birds as this is almost to much for me...so i have to walk away...until then good night everyone...i hope to see you tomorrow