Doesn't sound heartless at all, to me. I've had a knee problem for quite a while that devastated me because I couldn't do what I loved anymore - which is dance (thus the explanation to my username). And it has really hurt BECAUSE I don't have answers. I don't know what's wrong. They said it showed signs of "degenerative arthritis" which was back in my late 20's. I believe I was too young to have arthritis THAT bad (my knee had actually gone out MANY times before they even gave that diagnosis). Even worse, the FIRST diagnosis said "nothing wrong" after they did mere X-rays, and tried to send me to physical therapy. I was angry because they sent me to physical therapy after saying "nothing wrong" with the possibility that I could cause more damage without them knowing what the issue actually was.
So I can completely understand that, even if it's not on the same level. Answers REALLY DO ease your mind a lot more than knowing something is wrong, and not knowing what or why!
I hear about injuries forcing you to give up what you love, i too love dancing and other things i canno longer do. I have titanium rods in my spine. The pains started in my legs, not my back and doctors were like, you have really bad shin splints. Then I started falling, till finally my entire body locked up and I had to be rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. I had to be injected with muscle relaxers or i would have shattered my own spine from how i was arched backwards. They finally, after 5 Years discovered I had a bad disk that was collapsing into my sciatic nerves. I ended up having a spinal fusion of L5 S1 to save me from being in a wheel chair. I was 25 at the time with small children. I have some minor permanent nerve damage and the doctor who performed the surgery placed a screw wrong and it rubs a sensory feedback loop causing pain with every breath I take. There is no way to move the screw. Now 10 years later I am told mt L4 is going because of all the increased pressure from L5 being immobilized. I'm holding off as long as possible, the odds for my 1st surgery was 10% chance of death, 30% chance of paralysis. The second surgery that climbs to 30% chance of death and 60% chance of paralysis according to my doctors. They have me on some seriously strong pain meds, muscle relaxers, and anti-inflammitores, but those caused me to have bleeding ulcers. So this 1 thing has spiraled to take control of my entire life and there are times it really gets to me. I try to be strong for my kids and my mom (who has brain cancer and her pain is much worse than mine). I actually went to school and took immunology, and anatomy and physiology to get answers, they helped. I think I now know more about my condition than my doctors do, I make them let me read my own CT scans and MRI's with them. Lol. I carefully track my backs degeneration and make my own, informed decisions, cause some doctors are quacks and some are plain stupid.
Sorry for the ramble, hope you find out what is happening with your knee so you can get back to enjoying life!
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