Oh goodie, a post where I can whine!
Here goes:
Dh is in CA doing training then off to HI for a month or so and then off to Afganistan. I can't call him right now as he is in the field unless its an emergency.
I just found out my dad had a staph infection in his knee and spent a few days in the hospital LAST MONTH! My aunt had to have her gall bladder removed. Now my stepdad is in the hospital with possible lung cancer. I feel I need to be there to visit with him and help my mom out but I can't use the military flight to go there AND use it to go to HI to spend 10 days with DH before he deploys. I can't afford the $5k it would cost me and the kids to fly to the U.S., the kids will be in school so I can't just yank em out and stay in the states while DH is gone. We don't know yet how bad the cancer is and what kind of treatment if any he would have. So I am trying to figure out how to visit DH in HI, see my stepdad and not have the kids miss a buttload of school. Then add to that the daily crap I have to do here, our Cub Scout Pack will be starting activities up again here soon and I have to figure all that stuff out. I am seriously stressing out to the max! Oh and I just plunked down a nice chunk of change for a place to stay in HI that is nonrefundable if I cancel after Sept 3 and DH wont be out of the field until after that.
I am not good at making decisions on my own because I can't think of every possible angle and it frustrates me I can't talk to DH. Not visiting him in HI is not really an option because he has been gone since the beginning of this month and his deployment time (7months) doesnt start until he gets there so it could be 10-11 months before we would see him if we don't go to HI. I am anxious about this deployment because it has been 5 yrs since our last one and it was a 6 mo. one so this one will be longer. Some days I don't feel strong enough to handle it all and just want to curl up and cry. But like a good military wife, I will just pull up my big girl panties, have a few stiff drinks and carry on!
Thanks for letting me vent, I feel a little better now. I know my problems don't compare to others and I try to remember that others have it much worse that I do. But sometimes its nice to just worry about my problems sometimes. KWIM?
Here goes:
Dh is in CA doing training then off to HI for a month or so and then off to Afganistan. I can't call him right now as he is in the field unless its an emergency.
I just found out my dad had a staph infection in his knee and spent a few days in the hospital LAST MONTH! My aunt had to have her gall bladder removed. Now my stepdad is in the hospital with possible lung cancer. I feel I need to be there to visit with him and help my mom out but I can't use the military flight to go there AND use it to go to HI to spend 10 days with DH before he deploys. I can't afford the $5k it would cost me and the kids to fly to the U.S., the kids will be in school so I can't just yank em out and stay in the states while DH is gone. We don't know yet how bad the cancer is and what kind of treatment if any he would have. So I am trying to figure out how to visit DH in HI, see my stepdad and not have the kids miss a buttload of school. Then add to that the daily crap I have to do here, our Cub Scout Pack will be starting activities up again here soon and I have to figure all that stuff out. I am seriously stressing out to the max! Oh and I just plunked down a nice chunk of change for a place to stay in HI that is nonrefundable if I cancel after Sept 3 and DH wont be out of the field until after that.
I am not good at making decisions on my own because I can't think of every possible angle and it frustrates me I can't talk to DH. Not visiting him in HI is not really an option because he has been gone since the beginning of this month and his deployment time (7months) doesnt start until he gets there so it could be 10-11 months before we would see him if we don't go to HI. I am anxious about this deployment because it has been 5 yrs since our last one and it was a 6 mo. one so this one will be longer. Some days I don't feel strong enough to handle it all and just want to curl up and cry. But like a good military wife, I will just pull up my big girl panties, have a few stiff drinks and carry on!
Thanks for letting me vent, I feel a little better now. I know my problems don't compare to others and I try to remember that others have it much worse that I do. But sometimes its nice to just worry about my problems sometimes. KWIM?