I still struggle. Here is a pic of my hen and her 1st egg. Her pic was taken 2 months ago but she has some white. Her sister is much more red, more like maroon, with a bit of white. She is the only 1 laying and has laid an egg everyday but is medium egg.
I have days, weeks, and months that I'm not my normal self, and thats ok. It could be our bodies saying "take care of you for a change." Do something fun. Whatever makes you laugh and smile. I love watching my chickens run around the yard passing the grape like a football while I play...