Oh my! I hope you're feeling better and the cause of your problem has been fixed. Good for you for wanting to participate next time. The more you do it, the easier it gets. I don't know that I could ever say it's totally "easy", or that I will ever "enjoy" it, but it does get easier. You just...
We've been raising and processing our own chickens for years - DH grew up doing it - and I still get just a little sad on butchering day. I have learned not to get attached to the birds - meaties or layers - and that does help some. I don't name most of them. Some special ones get named, but it...