I feel for you. All of you.
My other 2 are also special needs, one being Autistic. Similar to your situation, little guy has struggles but he's high functioning and a very sweet boy, he WILL grow up and be a productive member of society on his own.
My oldest is so intelligent, he could be a...
Stepping in a little late here...but is that a silly thing to say?
I read the first page and this last one.
So, looks like someone else is doing a good job towards self care. I am happy for you :)
I attempted a therapist maybe this time last year. My experiences as a youth with therapy were...