I have been there; you are not the only one who loves your hens deeply. It can be so hard, but know that she did have a life, which is more than some other get. Remember her when she was healthy and content, her funny moments.It's been a week since she last laid an egg. Before that she was breaking eggs so I tried putting rocks or balls in her cubby-hole
I'd love to be brave enough to do it. I'm by myself too and no one really to help me. I feel so bad for her. She was perfect little chicken until at 9 months, my ex fed the dog at the same time she was out and she decided to have dinner too. Only thing, the Black Mouth dog didn't like that and almost bit her head off. She was blind and life was never the same. I grew worms for her. I had to get rid of the other 2 chickens I had because they were picking on her. Literally. I love her and they were my first. She didn't have friends, only me and the 3 dogs. She was robbed of a great life with me here at my home.
Sorry, long story and I'm gonna miss her but I hope to see her in Heaven just as beautiful as she could be.
She will be remembered, no matter where she is,
and she was loved, for who she is.