OMG, im sorry i havent sent my prayers earlier, ive had alot happening here too.
I really know you can make it, write it off, start again, yes tears will flow, Ive been there too, feels like #%^& at first but then the lights shine through and you begin to live again, Im sorry to know that you have lost things and I know that you will find new ones.
My heart is in my toe thinking about you over there, i wish I could be there for a chat!
Im there with you in spirit.
Im sending my prayers across the ocean to you
Love Helen