I'm lucky to have grown up in an ag community where slaughtering animals was normal and commonplace. We got pigs and cows from our neighbors, processed our own chickens - we usually knew the face of the critter that was our dinner. I always considered it normal - livestock was raised with a purpose, and you'd better give it good care whether it was a chicken or cow, knowing you would be eventually killing it for food (otherwise you'd get whupped).
I know now that isn't how everyone else has grown up, and I know not everyone can understand at first how someone can care for a creature, raise it, and then "kill" it for food.
When you get you meaties, just pound it in your head - you are a "farmer" now. You now have "livestock", not pets. Just like growing a garden, you are growing food for your family. They just happen to be more alive than a tomato plant, but in the end, they are food. The better care you give them, the better food they will give. Fresh air, fresh water, good food will all allow them to grow into a good product. Cornish X are bred for a purpose, and that purpose is meat, and the better the care you give them, the better the meat will be.
When it comes time to process, remind yourself over and over - this is what you raised them for. You can't eat a living chicken for dinner - your meat must be processed. Taking the BIG leap yourself to process is a hard one for many folks, but it's a rewarding one - once done, you've proven that you can complete the cycle of life and be able to "make" food for your family rather than relying on a store. At first, if you're not used to it, it's hard to take a living creature and transform it into food. It's a skill that requires resolve and backbone - there isn't any turning back. It's ok to feel bad at first - we're conditioned that way as a society to not want to take a life. It will get better through. It's not ideal to be completely blank about the process - for me, I don't feel "bad", I feel thankful for the food and the ability to provide good meat for my family. I'm thankful for each critter I process and I always mentally send it my gratitude for feeding my family. Each animal I kill - from a deer to a chicken, is important to me, and I'm grateful.
