Well....My wife passed away

I too lost my soul-mate way too young. He was 14 1/2 years older than me. He was 55 years old, a Vietnam vet who served on Force Recon. He died from Agent Orange. But was unable to prove it even thou the doctor told us thats why he is dieing.
He has been gone now for over 13 years. I raised our daughters without him...
I threw up for three years after he passed. He was my life. And for him I rasied our girls. Took me 8 1/2 years and my eldest daughter making me go out on a date to be able to move on, and with Gods help. I am still dating this same man today. If you like me you will never understand why they passed too soon.
I treasure my memories, blessed that my one daughter looks like her father.
I TOO COULD NOT SLEEP IN OUR BED for a long time. Then when I could I had and could only sleep on his side.
I still and will always miss him. I except God dession, even thou I do not understand why.
I did get very upset with myself for being so sad.
I lost my soulmate. But he got the gift of Heaven.
someday I will see, hold, and be with him again.
I know he is doing good. Had too many things happen that only God did when he was dieing and after he died that no one can say God was not with us. He, as in God, was carring me and my family through.
My favorite poem is "Footprints in the Sand"
Many and I mean many times he carried me like he is carring you now.
trust God
many prayers and hugs sent to you.
 
I've been away from BYC for a while, and today, checking in to see what was going on, I came across your post. It hit me with an all too familiar feeling. My true love passed away back in 2005. Like yours, she was a girl form my childhood. Your post was made in February; so I know you are still in quite a bit of pain, and there is nothing anyone can say to lessen it. All we can do is reach out to let you know that you are not alone. You mentioned family; so I'm glad you have that. They may become even more important to you as time goes on. Over time, you may want to find someone to take her place, but that can never happen as we are all so very different and the love you have for your late wife is as unique as she …. is. Although no one will be able to take her place, there may be someone to add to your life. We are capable of loving someone else in a way that is as unique as that person is unique. Give it time.
It is all apart of life's nature that of any couple, one will say goodbye and the other will be left behind. You and I have been left behind, but one day, we will follow the ones we love. The thought of that gives me comfort.
 
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I just came across this Spook. Please accept my sincere condolences on the passing of your wife.
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Sorry for your loss.
I haven't been on byc in a long time. I have read your posts before.
God bless.



Andrea-
 
Spook, I haven't been on in over a year. I lost my beloved husband, Doug, July 4th 2014. I don't know if you still follow this post but I had to respond. When my Mom died you sent me some really comforting words. I wish I had words to comfort you. He has been gone two years and while I have to function daily to run the farm that was our dream there are days when I just don't think I can go on. They come with longer intervals in between, but they still come. A sound, a song, a scent. All bring the pain back. But then I try to remember the laughter, the joy and the love and put one foot in front of the other and go on. It does get better, but it is hard to see that sometimes. I am available to talk any time day or night. My heart goes out to you my friend. You will survive even if you don't think you want to. PM me if you want to talk.

Deb
 
Spook, I haven't been on in over a year. I lost my beloved husband, Doug, July 4th 2014. I don't know if you still follow this post but I  had to respond. When my Mom died you sent me some really comforting words. I wish I had words to comfort you. He has been gone two years and while I have to function daily to run the farm that was our dream there are days when I just don't think I can go on. They come with longer intervals in between, but they still come. A sound, a song, a scent. All bring the pain back. But then I try to remember the laughter, the joy and the love and put one foot in front of the other and go on. It does get better, but it is hard to see that sometimes. I am available to talk any time day or night. My heart goes out to you my friend. You will survive even if you don't think you want to. PM me if you want to talk.

Deb


Sorry to hear Deb. Hang in there. I'll be praying for you.
 

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